October 9th 2010
Hey Zack.
I'm trying to get things on track, and get all these things in order, and write them all down so they make sense in my brain and so I can feel close to you. Because in the end, you not being here is the hardest of all. So, lets see whats been up with everyone and everything...
Cole: is almost completely off those depression pills he's been taking for a year and a half. It's weird, usually everyone gets all depressed after they have a near death experiacne, but the crash really woke him up. I guess he realized he cant waste his life being sad and shit like that. He can walk almost normally again, he just walks like 10 times slower and limps a little bit. Which is actually really, REALLY impressive concidering its only been two months. So, he's doing quite awesome actually. He hasnt talked to Claire for a LONG time, and I really hope he doesnt. I like her, in fact, I'd be a complete hypocrite if I didnt- but THATS MY MAN. I can't believe Vanessa didnt murder me when I was that big a douchebag. But I didnt have sex with you, and we dont have any kids together, so I guess its a bit of a different story. Anyway, in short, Cole is doing good- and he's an awesome support in all my shit. And all his own. And our kids too. He's pretty stable. I kinda love him for that.
Tommy: is doing pretty good. His principal is teaching him now, since his teacher is in jail for almost murdering me- and Tommy is pretty mad about that. He cant tell anyone why Mr.Hugo is gone. The principal just said he left. And thats all Tommy could say. He wanted to make up some crazy story about him being abducted by aliens and crap like that; but the principal wouldnt let him. Personally, I'd love for the whole city to think Mr.Hugo was abducted by aliens. I dont want anyone to know the truth. And it makes me sad that people know the truth. I wish they didnt.
Zack: is almost two. Wow. He's starting to get potty trained, and he's basiclly in love with his potty. It's a frog. It's pretty kick ass.
Skye: has also decided she wants to get potty trained. She's more ahead than Zack. She'll be proud of that when shes older; getting potty trained before her older brother.
Ivy: is.so.playful. She's like a boy. She's always on the move. Its crazy.
Lily: is so quiet. But SO needy. She still doesnt sleep the whole night through, and needs A LOT of hugs and attention.
Maria: is depressed. Theres really nothing else to say, because thats straight up and honest. And because my laptops dying. Cole makes me feel better. The kids do too. But sometimes, I wish I could just have you guys. I miss all of you. A lot. And I'm scared. which is stupid because I know Ray is in jail. But shit happened with him that I still havent told anyone, and that I dont even want to write to you. I'm scared for my life. I'll write to you tomorrow.
Thank you for listening to all this crap.
You make me feel a lot better.
I miss you so much.
Good night.
I love you.
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