February 2nd 2010
Hello my dearie (: This email is for you and Vanessa, so can you please go get Vanessa and read this together? Thanks.
Dearest Vanessa and Kellyanne,
I miss you guys so much. Im really in need of a break from all this crap, and I want to do it with you. I want to be with girls. Not babies or bitches who give me really bad head injuries, or the police, or my fucking husband who is convinced its okay to have sex with other people. Oh, perhaps I should explain.
Jaxon and Julia's mom, Claire, walked back into our lives in November. At first all was good. Then she told us she was still in love with Cole, and they kissed a bit that day. But, whatever, I knew what it was like to be in love with the wrong person, so we easily forgave her. The next time we saw her, all went well. But then I had to go to the hospital because one of the kids there was crying for me. So I left them alone and they started making out, on our bed, with Zack in the room. But, I forgave both of them. I came to the conclusion that I just wanted to have fun with them. But I dont know what I was thinking when I decided I wanted to get them drunk (I obviously couldnt because I'm pregnant agaiin) So, obviously, they got drunk. Like REALLY drunk. And I had to put the kids to bed. When I came back, they, of course, were making out on the ground- her shirt off. But when I came, Cole got pissed at Claire, and kicked her out. We wanted it to be over. But Cole wanted to forgive her after a while, so we forgave her. But she could no longer hang out with Cole alone. So one time, Clarie wanted to come over, but I wasnt home so Cole told her no. But she came anyway. And Cole and her went in the hot tub, and BAM. She was naked. But that part was all her fault. Cole kicked her out fast, and told her he hated her and that he never wanted to see her again.
He lied to me.
He was seeing her behind my back.
And he had sex with her.
I found this out on Friday. Claire came over, yet again. But this time, Cole wasnt home. So we got into a huge fight and I found out everything. And we hurt each other really bad. First I pushed her, then she threw something at me, and then i threw somethign at her. And in the end, we were throwing knives and she tried to choke me to death. Tommy called the police. Then Cole came home with the kids and beat Claire up. And then the police came and took Claire away. I got stitched up. But I cant take any pills at all, cause of the pregnancy. But I kicked Cole out.
He came back yesterday. But only to take care of the kids. I push him away whenever he tries to come close. And yell at him when he tries to apologize.
Fuck. Im so mad.
Just thought Id let you know. I need you right now.
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