Okay, kellyanne. If I ever see you again, you have permission to bitch slap me right across the face. I dont remember which day was your birthday. It was either February 17th, 18th, or 19th. Well, its February 19th, but we celebrated your birthday yesterday. When Zack and Skye were napping, me and Tommy made cupcakes. And when they woke up, we all went outside and basiclly just talked about you for an hour. Oh, God, Tommy would not shut up about everything you did with him. It made me cry so hard. Jeez, it was a hard day. Thats why I didnt email you yesterday, I was just too sad. We all miss you so much, sometimes it so frustrating being without you guys. Yesterday it was like you were dead. Tommy sent a balloon in the air for you and it felt like you were dead. Maybe I'l lsee you someday :) But I can only pray for that. Theres nothing else I can do, but keep living. I think I'll just focus on maybe seeing you again, instead of maybe not. I dont have a clue of what to say to you. I have no idea what your going through right now. Things might suck and be at their worst, or they might be pretty awesome. If they're bad, I hope more than anything that everything gets better. Your such a big part of my life and its so hard not knowing if your okay. It would make me feel so much better if I knew. Your still a part of my family, and I dont think thats gunna change. I like imagining you smiling. Its what I do when I'm sad. I think about you guys. And I think about you being happy. ON A LIGHTER NOTE. I'm so pregnant. ALMOST 16 WEEKS! Do you remember that time Tommy was all upset cause him and Cartman had a fight and you were all up in his face and he just wanted you to go away? Yesterday he told me he wish you stayed in his face. He came into mine and Coles room in the middle of the night crying, and we let him sleep in between us cause he was all upset cause he missed you. He said he regretted all the times you sat in silence, or all those times when he was a dick cause he loved you so much and loved his time with you. He said he took you for granted and if he had one wish it would be for him to go back to those times and cherish them. I mean, THAT coming from TOMMY. Thats pretty deep. Well, hopefully I'll be seeing you. Happy Birthday.
Oh, and heres a picture that Tommy edited form the day we celebrated... he believes he's a photographer.
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