quotesand links. <--- click that. Okay, so I could do that with the emails too, but IM PRETTY PUMPED ABOUT THIS WHOLE BLOGGING THING! I mean, theres more of a chance that you'll find this blog than opening your old email account. Besides, it got deleted like 40 emails ago. I think I email you too much for my own good. OH, AND ANOTHER GOOD THING ABOUT BLOGGING, IS THAT I CAN FIX MY SPELLING ERRORS! I wrote some effed up errors in the past. NOT ANYMORE, MY FRIEND.
So, I'm not sure what day of the week you should have your weekly subscription letters. But I'm SUPER tired, so I think it'll have to be tomorrow. Every Thursday? I think that sounds good. And then I should email your wifee on Tuesdays or Wednesdays. And then write in my journal on Mondays or something, and in my other blog on Sundays. Or.. something.
I did tell about about this "new Zach", havent I? He's pretty cool, he took me out to Starbucks.. er... yesterday? I think. maybe it was the day before that. I dont know. I'm too tired for my own good. But hey. It aint nothin but a thang. Or a chicken wang. Which do you prefer? I'm asking too many questions. Wait, I've only asked like four... havent I? Eh. I dont know. I guess sometimes I'm a little too inquisitive. Or is it clueless? okay, now I'm just doing it on purpose.
Oh, but your really wondering about what the hell inquisitive means? LOOK IT UP DUDE.
Nah, I'm not mean. I'll just tell yah. It means you ask lots of questions.
My plan is to go to bed after survivor, and their reading their votes, SO I GOTTA HURRY! Um. You know how when you walk into stores, and theres that little TV thing? And you can see yourself in them when you walk in? You know how little kids ALWAYS look up and think its only THE most fascinating thing EVER! and then they make funny faces at it and stuff? Yeah, I still do that...
HOLY CRAP! IT SNOWED, AND NOW I WANT CHRISTMAS! But everyone wants Halloween, but JEEEZZ, WHY CANT WE JUST ALL EAT HEALTHY? I think I should give out apples or something. ... Zack. I have a confession to make. And it might sound kinda funny, but I'm being totally and completely serious about it. In fact, it kinda breaks my heart.
This year, Tommy is going trick or treating with his buddies, Travis and Jake in the city, near Travis' house. Its just the three of them that are going. God, I never thought it would be such a big deal to me. I'm terrified that something bad will happen to him. What if he gets kidnapped? What if he goes up to a house, and a creepy old man pulls him inside and kills him? What is he forgets to say 'yes please' and THANK YOU!? I'm scared for him. But thats not even the point. He's just so grown up. Honestly. He's TEN. And I know he's just my little brother, but it was me and Cole that raised him. He acts the way he does partially because of me and Cole. I know I'm not his mom; but I am his big sister, and his legal guardian and I'm worried, and I'm sad. And I wish he could just stop growing older. I'll always love him, but I just want my little Tommy with me a little longer. I'm not ready for the day he decides he doesnt want to be Tommy anymore. What if he wants to be Tom, or Thomas? I dont want that. He isnt a Tom or a Thomas. Hes a TOMMY. Hes MY Tommy. I know he's not my child, but I love him just as much as I love Zack and Skye and Ivy and Lily. He`s one of them. And I love him in a different way than I love my babies, but sometimes, the differences just dont matter. Tommy is my baby, too. And on Sunday he`ll be in charge of himself. He`ll have to be responsible and respectful. He`ll have to be a little man and I`m not ready for that.
Ha. I guess that did sound a little crazy. But I feel better now that I let that out. Thanks Zack, you rock. Well, Survivor is long over. I`m headed off to bed.
G night. Hugs, and more hugs.
-Mariaa
(see? No spelling errors. Except for the intentional ones ;)
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