Happy Skye Day!
Hey there. Is this font a little off to you? Hm. Oh well, we're using it anyway. So, today was Skye day. Her first birthday. And I dont know if I should be happy, or sad. I did my fair share of laughing and crying today. She's... shes just not a baby anymore. And I'm not ready to have two toddlers in town. I know I still have two baby girls, but I felt really sad today when I looked at Skyes BABY pictures. I always wanted her to be THIS age. I always wanted a little girl who was just starting to walk and talk. I feel like I looked at her as a baby, and only thought about what she'd look like today. I was so busy thinking about the future, I didnt live in the moment. And now, those crawling days are over. The sleepy days are over. Shes on her feet a lot more lately, and she even said her first word today.. which was freaking adorable.
We went to the playground to celebrate her birthday. There were balloons, and tutus, and music, and EVERYTHIGN WAS SO PINK. Its what I always wanted for my daughter. I mean, seriously, go ask Kellyanne about her daughter. She'll go on and on about her. I've been planning stuff for Skye since I was 12. Anyway, we invited a bucnh of people to the park- and took lots of pictures. And there was music playing, and Skye tugged on my leg and said "DANCE!" Yepp. Finally. She talks. I'll tell you all the cool things she says. Pretty much all shes saying is "DANCE, MUMMA, DANCE!" Its so cute though.. I cant believe shes ONE. Thats like... 365 days. Which is 8765 hours! Which is 525 948 minutes! Which is 31 556 926 seconds! Im realyl shaken up about it... she's sleeping in between me and Cole right now. So cute :)
Oh speaking of sleeping. Wow. I really dont like going to bed and just sleeping with a fucking sexy boy next to me. its like. Im a dog being teased. Like HOOLY FUCK. Whens the last time I had sex? Its killing me man.
Speaking of sex, remember the good ole days when I wanted to have sex with you? I thought about one of those times today. During summer, we were chilling in the water, and I was in your arms- and you were kissing my neck and making out with me SO ITS NOT REALLY ALL MY FAULT, and yeah. I bascilly just asked you if we could fuck. You said no. :(
Wouldnt have been fucking SWEET if we had sex? I mean, that would have just fucked SO much up. It would have been so entertaining. WOW IM A BITCH. But you know, sometimes I wonder what would have happened.. I mean, either way, you would have left... It just would have been a twist. Or, even if Cole and Vanessa had sex. Wow. That would be interesting. Yeah, when they make time machines, I'm totally gonig back to those days and having sex with you just to see whats gunna happen. Sound good? Just be aware. I have a lot of non-touchable places on me, cause the bruises are too bad. OOH THERES SOMETHING YOU DIDNT KNOW ABOUT ME. Lets expand on the topic.
So basiclly, there are a few places all over my body- and if someone touches them, DAMN IT HURTS. Teh one that hurts the most is on my lower back, but then theres another one of my left shoulder blade that hurts like fuck. Then theres one place on my right arm, and behind my right knee.Yeah, remember when your brother raped me? Gooodtimes. He touched my lower back and HOLY FUCK IT HURT. Yeah, good times getting raped by your brother. But lets be honest, it was way better than al lthe other times someone took advantage of me. Wait a second. Are we talking about how good it was fucking your brother? or the size of his dick? Or what? I'm not even sure myself, Zack, so lets just change the topic.
Wow, what a good talk we're having. But enough reminiscing good times with Derek, lets talk more about Spring Break.
Okay sweet. So, where did we leave off last night?
Oh right, April 2nd...
I like how it started with me wanting to give you a makeover. it was so funny how oblivious you were. You had no idea what was about to hit you. Neither did I, honestly. Everything started off really casually. I didnt even hesitate saying "take off your shirt." But after I said it, in my head I was like "HOLY FUCK MARIA WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY!!?"
S: What?
Yepp. You were just as surprised as I was. And you know, I meant to tell you, "I dont even know, S. Never mind what I just said." But instead I said
Ma: take off your shirt.
S: What?
Ma: Take. off. your. shirt.
S: What?
Ma: S. Just take off your shirt. Its not a big deal.
WTF YES IT IS.
S: What?
Ma: ABS OR GTFO.
S: I knew you'd fall for my good looks and charm one day.
You legit said that.
Ma: Oh, dont worry, S. I've already fallen for you.
You toook off your shirt.
DAYYYUUMMM BOIII.
I think this memory is starting to gget a little embarassing.
Okay so then I asked you to pick front or back. And thank the good lord you picked front...
Yeah, so. That position. is what Tommy called it. DAMN. OKAY. YOU KNOW WHAT.
I just realized how embarassing this is. Yeah. Yeah. you kissed me.
Cause I turned you on. :) :) :)
SEE YAH LATER ZACK.
I miss and love you.
Maria xx
WAIT, HERES PICTURES OF SKYE ON HER BIRTHDAYY!!
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