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Thursday, March 24, 2011

Frustration on Vacation

We are now all prepared to wake up in seven hours and get on a plane. But today was so stressful, I don't know if I can even be happy about it... its that Spring Break Fever coming back... fuck. I just don't want to be far away from you. WHAT IF YOU DECIDE TO COME BACK? I won't be there. And I just don't want to leave the house. What if it gets broken into? What if something happens to one of the animals? The whole cruise itself won't even be that relaxing... we have seven kids with us. Maybe I'm just in a bad mood because when we surprised Claire and said she could come her and Cole were just so happy about it.
FUCK.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. Zack I just don't fucking understand.
I don't mean this in any kind of lovey dovey way or anything, I'm not saying I still have feelings for you or anything but, GOD, when I was with you, I was so at peace. I'm going on a fucking cruise and I won't be able to completely relax. I've never been able to relax since you left, and its not just because I've had three more kids since then, its just that YOU aren't here. I don't mean this in a mushy sense or anything, I mean it completely literally... my heart is just broken. Its like... I'm happy, but theres a cut in my heart and its never completely full. And it can't be. Not without you. It's a physical ache. I literally feel the brokeness and it sucks.
BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, the astrology website was updated about Libras (me) ;)

But, its not about me. Today its about CLAIRE. So bring Vanessa in. Well, she might have been there all along. It doesn't really matter. ANYWAY.
HELLO ZACK AND VANESSA. Here are some facts about Claire.
WHOA WHOA WHOA WHOA HOLD THE FUCK UP. Claire has the same facts as Vanessa.
So, go back to this post, and continue reading this one if you wanna hear my thoughts about it.
Bitch aint getting no massages from my man.
Bitch aint getting no flattery from my man. (she kind of does though)
Yeah bitch you suck.
Bitch you're sure as hell a confident home wrecker.
Fuck. fuck why does she have to be good looking? FUCK.
BITCH WOULDNT HAVE THE BEST SEX WITH MY MAN.
BITCH NECK IS SUPPOSED TO BE ONE OF MY HOT SPOTS, DO NOT FUCKING STEAL MY MOJO.
Bitch looks sexy in nothing.
Bitch ain't playing any music when she has sex with my man cause shes not ever gonna have sex with my man.... again.
Bitch you don't get to make my man feel inferior.
Bitch... dat true. She is determined to seduce and dominated my man. TOO BAD BITCH AINT GONNA DO THAT.
Bitch you ain't cuddling with my man... even though you do... sometimes :(
FUCK FUCK FUKC FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
Bitch, I agree. Food is good.
Bitch aint getting any new adventures or mysteries.
Bitch is blunt about sex. Very blunt. Thats a very true statement.
Bitch don't get to be sensual OR passionate with MY MAN.
Bitch don't get to enjoy anything natural with MY MAN.
COLE
IS
MY
MAN.
Speaking of my man...

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Dear Loves,

If you`re reading this, hi. You`re awesome and yes its been FOREVER since you went away but I still miss all of you so much and want to share my life with you, regardless of whether or not you want to be a part of it again or just want to read about it (but you should totally leave a comment if you do read this) I started this in hopes of being with you again but since I`m pretty sure thats not going to happen, and I`m completely fine with not seeing you until we`re all in Heaven, this blog has become more of a release from the stresses of life. It`s a time to ramble about awesome things and make myself laugh, cause I do that a lot nowadays. If you are reading this; there`s a few things you need to know. One, I`m sorry for everything. Two, I have four kids now and I`m single. Three, I`m AWESOME. And so is my family and friends. So you should read this. OkayÉ OKAY! Stupid É

One last thing- we love you and miss you.

Not Zack?

Chances are, if anyone finds this blog, Zack or any of his family members wont be one of them. If you are one of the other people who somehow found their way to this blog; hi. I'm Maria. But your probably more curious as to who the heck Zack and The Love's are. Zack is someone I grew up with- someone who I fell in love with and made mistakes with. Vanessa is his wife. Miley, Kellyanne, and Cartman are Zacks siblings. They all live together. Tommy and Cartman were best friends. We were all so close to each other. We did everything together. We made so many memories, some good, some bad. Most of them were good, but for the wrong reasons. Everything got complicated. It was my fault. They all left. I say they left April 2009, because thats the last time we were happy; they really left September 2009. Losing them has been the hardest thing, despite all of the hard ships I've been though in my life. We were family.

We dont think we will ever see the Love's again. This blog is all the hope I have. Its just a sliver of hope, but we're surviving off of it. But who knows, maybe if YOU follow this blog it will become more popular, and then they have a better chance at seeing us again.