Letter to Vanessa (#8)

I can't believe I'm about to explain this AGAIN!
Don't get me wrong, Halloween was great. The kids were adorable and had a great time trick or treating. It was after the kids went to bed where things went wrong. Yes, Claire was over. So was my new buddy, Zach. And yeah, he does remind me a little of your husband. Lets just lay it out how it is.
All four of us were in the basement drinking.
I got a little drunk and decided to go upstairs to clean the kitchen.
Zach decided to help me.
We were just fooling around. He was tickling me and we were laughing.
And somewhere in the midst of all the laughs, Zach Gray became Zack Love.
I stopped and stared at him. He stared at me.
He probably knew what I was thinking. He knew about Zack.
He told me his girlfriend broke up with him.
That there was 'someone else'
And then he leaned in and kissed me.
And I loved it.
And it was wrong.
Then Claire came upstairs and saw us, and told Cole who was really upset about it. We talked in private and left Zach and Claire alone. We made up. When we came back, Zach and Claire were making out. We made Zach leave (but I know that he's going through a lot right now, and I will forgive him later) and Claire explained herself. She was SO upset. She told us that she was trying to hide it, but for a while she thought Cole was the only one that mattered, and she only thought about him and cared about him. She lost her job. She cant pay off her bills; not any of them. She can barely keep food on the table for her kids. So we let her in our house.
That's right, the girl I've been ranting about is currently living with us. In fact, shes sitting beside Cole on the couch right now. Today, they were good. But I'm scared for tomorrow. And every waking minute after that.