For some awesome people.: ITS NOT YOU, ZACK, ITS ME!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

ITS NOT YOU, ZACK, ITS ME!

OKAY! IM SORRY! Seriously... I am...
I feel all giddy and all in love... and happy...
right now anyway.
I'm worried. Because me and Cole have been arguing a lot lately and it SUCKS.
And then we make up and we're just SO happy and in love
I fucking feel like I'm in highschool or something.
But we both know this isnt healthy and we keep saying we'll stop but we CAN'T.
I lied. I shouldnt have.
I didn't know he hated it when people lied so much.
And suddenly its so hard for him to FORGIVE. He used to be such a forgiving person...
I have no fucking idea what to do but I want this to stop and I just want to love him and I want him to love me. I don't even know what it is we're always fighting about. HFAJDKHFKSADJHFSAKJDHFUIWAFABFAKJAFHSDGFHWHAFKA.
I love him so much and I
dont
know
what
to
do.
So I'm gonna write to both of you today cause you guys are married. And you should know about this stuff.
So please tell me WHAT TO DO.

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Dear Loves,

If you`re reading this, hi. You`re awesome and yes its been FOREVER since you went away but I still miss all of you so much and want to share my life with you, regardless of whether or not you want to be a part of it again or just want to read about it (but you should totally leave a comment if you do read this) I started this in hopes of being with you again but since I`m pretty sure thats not going to happen, and I`m completely fine with not seeing you until we`re all in Heaven, this blog has become more of a release from the stresses of life. It`s a time to ramble about awesome things and make myself laugh, cause I do that a lot nowadays. If you are reading this; there`s a few things you need to know. One, I`m sorry for everything. Two, I have four kids now and I`m single. Three, I`m AWESOME. And so is my family and friends. So you should read this. OkayÉ OKAY! Stupid É

One last thing- we love you and miss you.

Not Zack?

Chances are, if anyone finds this blog, Zack or any of his family members wont be one of them. If you are one of the other people who somehow found their way to this blog; hi. I'm Maria. But your probably more curious as to who the heck Zack and The Love's are. Zack is someone I grew up with- someone who I fell in love with and made mistakes with. Vanessa is his wife. Miley, Kellyanne, and Cartman are Zacks siblings. They all live together. Tommy and Cartman were best friends. We were all so close to each other. We did everything together. We made so many memories, some good, some bad. Most of them were good, but for the wrong reasons. Everything got complicated. It was my fault. They all left. I say they left April 2009, because thats the last time we were happy; they really left September 2009. Losing them has been the hardest thing, despite all of the hard ships I've been though in my life. We were family.

We dont think we will ever see the Love's again. This blog is all the hope I have. Its just a sliver of hope, but we're surviving off of it. But who knows, maybe if YOU follow this blog it will become more popular, and then they have a better chance at seeing us again.